Tender Memories

An Evening in MCR

2005-05-15T16:05:00.000+08:00

Now

2005-05-15T15:35:00.000+08:00

Been quite busy nowadays... No time to post any interesting "stuffs" in my blog yet... Well, I've juz graduated from TP... Quite proud though to get a diploma but a bit disappointed with my results... haha... Nevermind....wat's done is done...!

For now, I'm working in Kembangan area and giving part-time tuition too... Hmm... I guess I'll be working for the time being and continue my studies later... Insyallah... C how la eh...

My FaVe HanGouT pLaCe c",)

2005-03-28T00:40:00.000+08:00

All Time FavoriTe CouRse - BIT

2005-03-28T00:39:00.000+08:00

My BeLoveD SchooL @ TemaseK

2005-03-28T00:37:00.000+08:00

If I were to pass away...

2005-03-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

If I leave this earth and pass away
Grieve not over my departure and do pray
For life in this earth is only a temporary stay
For my time is up and my soul is called away...

Weep not too loudly when I'm deceased
Cry not too much if I'm dismissed
But pray for my safety so at least
I will not be in fear in the 'land of mist'...

In the grave, I will be all alone
With my deeds which I have to atone
There isn't communication outside and no phone
I could either smile and relaxed or moan and groan...

Just make a doa and say Al-Fatehah for me
To make it more bearable on my distant journey
Forgive my sins and make halal my debt, if I have any
Because my soul has departed from earth, for eternity...

Don't be too grieved if I or anyone else dies
It's all Allah's Plan for He is All Wise
The separation is temporary and it may even be nice
With Allah's Grace, we may meet again, in Paradise.

When a girl cries...

2005-03-10T21:45:00.002+08:00

If a gal cries in front of u,
It means dat she couldn't take it anymore.
If u take her hand,
She would stay with u 4 the rest of your life...
If u let her go,
She couldn't go back 2 being herself anymore.

A gal won't cry easily,
Except in front of the person who she loves the most,
She becomes weak...

A gal won't cry easily,
Only when she loves u the most,
She put down her ego...

Guys...
If a gal cries bcoz of u,
Please hold her hands firmly,
She's the one who would stay with u 4 the rest of ur life.

Guys...
If a gal cries bcoz of u,
Please don't give her up,
Maybe bcoz of ur decision,
U'll ruin her life.

When she cry right infront of u,
When she cry bcoz of u,
Look into her eyes...
Can u see n feel the pain and hurt she's feeling?
Think...

Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,
Infront of u,
And bcoz of u?
She cry not because she is weak,
She cry not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity,
She cry bcoz crying silently is no longer possible,
The pain, hurt, n agony,
Have become 2 big a burden 2 b kept inside.

Guys...
Think about it,
If a gal cries her heart out 2 u,
And all because of u,
Its time 2 look back on what u have done,
Only u will know the answer 2 it.

Do consider it,
Coz one day...
It may b 2 late 4 regrets,
It may b 2 late 2 say "I'm sorry".

To my friends...
Ponder this message seriously.
Don't do this to a gal,
You may regret 4 the rest of ur life.
Maybe in ur life,
She's the onli one that loves u the most.
Remember this lesson...

Copyrights...

2005-03-07T13:48:00.000+08:00

hello all...
As u can see, most of my postings are poems that I extracted from certain websites... Except for the photos ar...*like duh!* Thanks to the original authors... These poems potray my feelings...who I am...my "love" life...etc... Hope u like them n enjoy yah!

Dinner @ Yasalam

2005-03-06T05:59:00.000+08:00

My POT group members

2005-03-06T05:58:00.000+08:00

Hari Raya Gathering with the Sixtaz

2005-03-06T05:52:00.000+08:00

Taken @ Huzaima's house!

Hari Raya Gathering with Poly Mates

2005-03-06T05:50:00.000+08:00

Our 1st house for the day...(Huzaima)

I Love U

2005-02-01T22:51:00.000+08:00

When I try to love you less...
I just love you all the more...
When I hear you coming through the door...
I know I love You all the more...
Why, it seems to me that everyday...
I love you all the more...
But I love you all the more...
When I go to sleep at night...
I love you all the more...
When I travel on the road...

I Love You

After a While...

2005-02-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

After a while...
You learn the subtle difference...
between holding a hand and chaining a soul...

And you learn...
That love doesn't mean leaning & company doesn't mean security...
And you begin to learn...
That kisses aren't contracts and presents are promises...

And you begin to accept your defeats...
With your head up and your eyes open,
With the grace of an adult not the grief of a child...

And you learn...
Tto build your roads on today...
Because tomorrow's ground is uncertain for plans...

After a while...
You learn that even sunshine burns...
If you get too much...
So plant your own garden & decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers...

And you learn that you really can endure...
That you really are strong...
And you really do have worth...

I Hate You

2005-02-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

I hate you when your kind...
I hate you when your not...
I hate you when your in love...
I hate you when your not...

I hate you when your around...
I hate you when your not...
I hate you when you hate me...
I hate you when you love me...

I hate you cause you make me love you...
When your happy or angry at me...
I hate you all the more...
You make me want to love you....
but I can't because...
I'm supposed to hate you...
Maybe one day,
I will be able to love you like...
You love me...
Maybe, just maybe I'll be able to like before...

Have You.... What If....

2004-12-24T17:17:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?,
or saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.

Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...
If you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple
because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own...
when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had,
but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...
for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone
because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
We tell lies when we are afraid...
afraid of what we don't know,
afraid of what others will think,
afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie,
the thing we fear grows stronger.
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back
and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?
*People live, but people die.

I want to tell you that you are a friend.
If you died tomorrow (God Forbid), you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?
You might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next year,
don't talk that often the next,
and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say,
even if I never talk to you again in my life,
you are special to me
and you have made a difference in my life,
I look up to you, respect you,
truly cherish you , &
most of all I CARE about friends

Why?

2004-11-03T14:35:00.000+08:00

"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had?
Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine?
Why is that I miss someone I was never with
and I ask why I love someone who's love was never mine?"

Silent Love

2004-11-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

Have you ever been silently in love?
With someone you can never have?
So close you can touch his/her hand
Yet, so far to feel his/her heart?

Have you ever lived in pretense
Quietly loving without any condition?
A feeling of love that's unknown
Hiding it, not knowing for how long...

Have you ever fallen deeply
Loving the person unconditionally?
So afraid to say what you feel
Acting normal, keeping things still...

Have you ever been hurt unintentionally
But put on a smile, pretended to be happy?
Deep inside you're in pain and suffering
But outside you're jolly and laughing...

Why does holding his/her hand feel so right?
Your heart smiles everytime he/she's at sight
Hearing his/her voice makes your day
Hope you can hug him/her in a special way...

Me, Myself & I

2004-11-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

There is a part of me
That feels I am different from everyone else.
Something that I can't quite see,
Something that I can't quite feel,
Something so unreal.
But this 'thing' is always there,
This 'thing' with others,
I will never share.
So I push it to the back of my mind,
All the thoughts of boys and clothes
And make-up, it is hiding behind.
Sometimes, when I have almost forgotten,
It comes back with such ferocity,
Angry and unforgiving.
I feel so lost and sad,
Whatever caused this feeling
Must have been so horrible and bad.
A lost memory or something else,
I'll never know,
Whatever it is,
I know for sure,
I can never let this feeling show...

Hijab

2004-10-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

What do you see when you look at me?
Do you see someone limited, or someone free?
All some people can do is just look and stare...
Simply because they can't see my hair.

Others think I am controlled and uneducated...
They think that I am limited and un-liberated.
They are so thankful that they are not me...
Because they would like to remain 'free.'

Well free isn't exactly the word I would've used...
Describing women who are cheated on and abused.
They think that I do not have opinions or voice...
They think that being hooded isn't my choice.

They think that the hood makes me look caged...
That my husband or dad are totally outraged.
All they can do is look at me in fear...
And in my eye there is a tear...

Not because I have been stared at or made fun of...
But because people are ignoring the One up Above.
On the Day of Judgment they will be the fools...
Because they were too ashamed to play by their own rules.

Maybe the guys won't think I am a cutie...
But at least I am filled with more inner beauty.
See I have declined from being a guy's toy...
Because I won't let myself be controlled by a boy.

Real men are able to appreciate my mind...
And aren't busy looking at my behind.
Hooded girls are the ones really helping the Muslim...
Cause the role that we play definitely deserves applause.

I will be recognized because I am smart and bright...
And because some people are inspired by my sight.
The smart ones are attracted by my tranquility...
In the back of their mind they wish they were me.

We have the strength to do what we think is right...
Even if it means putting up a life-long fight.
You see we are not controlled by a miniskirt and tight shirt...
We are given only respect, and never treated like dirt.

So you see, we are the ones that are free and liberated...
We are not the ones that are sexually terrorized and violated.
We are the ones that are free and pure...
We're free of STD's that have no cure.

So when people ask you how you feel about the hood...
Just sum it up by saying 'Baby, its all good!'